Crazy crazy week of debrief. There were some really sweet moments, but honestly really hard moments.
We had lots of downtime which was so nice. I got to get some things done that I’ve needed to do, including scrapbooking and journaling. We stayed at a really beautiful camp next to Lake Atitlan. The spiritual presence there is pretty heavy, so I personally think during the week I was fighting that a lot of the time. It really was GORGEOUS though. Every day we had worship, which I had the honor to lead with my new guitar a few times! In that way it’s been absolutely amazing to see how far my squad has come, and I truly saw us come to gather as the body of Christ this week.
Wednesday was our adventure day, so pretty much the whole squad took two boats over to the other side of the lake to go cliff jumping! The main jump was about 40 feet. I went second so I didn’t have time to think about it, and I’m SO glad I did because it was so intense 😭. A couple people ended up getting hurt a little bit, but praise God because they’re okay. There was a smaller jump which I did twice, then I did the big one another time hahahaha. I laid out in the sun for a while, then went out to lunch with Alia, Sofia, and Carter. I hung out with another group for a little bit by the water while the sun was setting which was awesome.
Saturday I had the opportunity to lead a teaching! Lucy asked me about a month ago if I wanted to do it, so I had a lot of time to prepare. I was pretty freaked out lol, but it was all okay in the end. I would love to have the opportunity to teach again so I could talk about something I’m more passionate about, but God will do what He wants with what I said. That night we did a Just Dance tournament which my very own Ava Magaña won!!!
Unfortunately Thursday morning, we said bye to my leader Gretchen. There were no details, but we know that God has a plan for her and she needs to be at home. We all had a pretty tender moment saying bye to her with lots of tears, but in that we were able to really love and comfort each other. I love Gretchen so much and she was the best leader. It’s going to be hard adjusting to not having her anymore, but the Lord will turn this all for good.
God is so patient with me even when I’m doubting Him or I’m so distracted. Even when I put my own feeling and emotions over what my true identity is in Jesus. I struggled a little bit this week with feeling like I’ve backtracked. There were a lot of things circulating through my mind that I wasn’t really able to articulate to my squad, and so I secluded myself a little bit.
Even in the midst of everything though, I had some really sweet moments with my squad this week. We stayed up a few nights screaming our hearts out to Bruno Mars karaoke, going out to town and eating amazing food, having random worship sessions in the dark, and playing an improve game that Madison loves.
WE’RE BACK HOME AT THE BASE!! Immediately when we got back I felt so much better. We start ministry for real this week, which I’m PUMPED about, and I’m excited to see what God is going to do this week.
Leave a Reply